22.6.13

I Miss You My Little Haven...

22.6.13
Hello everyone! It has been quite some time now since the last time I updated this blog and I just missed this little haven of mine so much. I have been on hiatus for like 3 months now and whew! that was such a long time already.

I know I had been jotting down so much drama 3-4 months back, and please do understand me guys why I had to write down those kind of stuff here( lol ). I just needed to vent out what I exactly felt during those times,  and this blog is just the perfect platform for me to voice out everything that I don't have the courage to confide to the people close to my heart. I must admit that I'm still hurting now but I'm definitely much better these days than the past months. ( I needed to be okay 'coz that's the best thing to do, right? lol ).

Wow! I just realized now that 3 months had passed already. Time just runs so fast. I went through so much things the past months and those were one of the hardest scenarios that I needed to deal with. During those tough times, I felt like that I'm all alone, and there's no one to turn to, that they are all against me. What's so disappointing was that, the person who started it out or the main reason behind it, was the same person you thought who would protect you, but sadly, it was the other way around. I had been judged, called names by the people involved, which is very painful on my part because they really don't know the whole story behind it, they don't know the real me. He already said he was sorry for the trouble he had caused, but I have no idea at all if he's sincere about it.

What had happened to me made me realized that I need to be more careful the next time around, don't ever make decisions too soon or if you're just carried away by your emotions, don't rush things, and you really have to be more wiser in choosing people to trust with. Don't trust so easily since you would regret that in the end. Yes, I have learned my lesson the hard way but that's a fact of life, I can't turn back time. I just have to leave everything to God, that He'll give me more strength, that I'll get over him anytime soon ( which is so hard on my part, because I realized now that I really have a strong feeling for him despite everything that had happened ). I really have to be strong because he's not worth my tears, I deserve someone better, and I believe that someday, I'll finally meet that special someone who would treat and love me right, ( I'm keeping my fingers crossed ).

1 comments:

Jakey Junkie said...

Let me share to you a quote from my favorite author, Neil Strauss:

“We have this idea that love is supposed to last forever. But love isn't like that. It's a free-flowing energy that comes and goes when it pleases. Sometimes, it stays for life; other times it stays for a second, a day, a month or a year. So don't fear love when it comes simply because it makes you vulnerable. But don't be surprised when it leaves either. Just be glad you had the opportunity to experience it.”

You will be fine eventually, my friend. It's already a cliche to say that I've been there already, but a fact's a fact. Just keep yourself together, yes?

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